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su waner ([personal profile] jiaohua) wrote 2025-02-23 06:14 pm (UTC)

...my heart skipped a beat when we first met. I didn't realize it just then, but I think that should have been my first clue.

[she looks down into her glass of rice wine.]

But... I wanted to be around him. I found myself missing him, when I could not see him. I found myself excited to join social events that I otherwise would have no interest in, just as soon as I heard that he was there and that there might be a chance for us to meet.

When I really realized that I loved him, though... it was when I would imagine my future. Before, I always imagined it in the abstract. Someday, I would meet a man and marry him; I would have a husband, and with that husband, I would start a family. But then my imaginings became more specific. it was not just the idea of a husband I imagined, it was him. It was not just any child I imagined carrying; it was his child.

To want so badly for him to be a part of my future... what else could it be if not love?

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