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[turboheaven] catchall for shadowheart
they're roomies... i hope shadowheart murders her just to get the room to herself tbh
[back in their room! waner is looking through the belongings that are still here in her room, reorganizing some things while her chao grips a pillow and keeps bapping at her ankles with it impishly.
bap. bap! she shoots it a Look and heaves a sigh.
well, at least it's not attacking shadowheart.]
bap. bap! she shoots it a Look and heaves a sigh.
well, at least it's not attacking shadowheart.]
[she also has a naughty chao so it is also running around causing chaos.]
...They are a lot. I've gotten used to them, but.
[also her stuff is pretty neat and tidy but shadowheart's stuff has spread out a lot, she's got like a ton of books and potted plants now and a bed that the owlbear is sleeping on sorry he sleeps inside now.]
...They are a lot. I've gotten used to them, but.
[also her stuff is pretty neat and tidy but shadowheart's stuff has spread out a lot, she's got like a ton of books and potted plants now and a bed that the owlbear is sleeping on sorry he sleeps inside now.]
[hmm. slight worry.]
Is everything alright, now?
Is everything alright, now?
[awww.]
I'm glad none of you were stuck. It must have been difficult, being there so long.
I'm glad none of you were stuck. It must have been difficult, being there so long.
I don't know. Maybe.
[she couldn't say, but she wouldn't like not being able to do anything.]
Did you always know you were healing and might be able to leave?
[she couldn't say, but she wouldn't like not being able to do anything.]
Did you always know you were healing and might be able to leave?
They said it was a place for healing from the start, and that they were working to find a way to reconnect to this side...
[but, like. enough things have gone wrong in this heaven that it was one of those "i'll believe it when i see it" things for her.]
[but, like. enough things have gone wrong in this heaven that it was one of those "i'll believe it when i see it" things for her.]
[smiling at her slightly, a little flicker of warmth.]
...Thank you. [looking around their little room, which was frankly kind of depressing with waner's stuff still here but which she tried to fill with nice things anyway.] It's a bit odd. I think the version of me you knew, it was only a few weeks ago, but I don't know if I'm really the same person anymore.
I was so guarded, particularly with someone I was sharing quarters with.
...Thank you. [looking around their little room, which was frankly kind of depressing with waner's stuff still here but which she tried to fill with nice things anyway.] It's a bit odd. I think the version of me you knew, it was only a few weeks ago, but I don't know if I'm really the same person anymore.
I was so guarded, particularly with someone I was sharing quarters with.
True, something I knew well at the time. And I would never begrudge you, but I would have cared less if I could change it.
[waner's chao has now busied itself with trying to jump up and snatch back the pillow she'd confiscated from it. she lifts it out of the little creature's reach.]
...is it too late to try to be a little more open now, do you think? We have so little time left.
...is it too late to try to be a little more open now, do you think? We have so little time left.
I wouldn't mind getting to know one another better.
[though it's weird to just announce that you will, it takes her a second to think of what she'll say.]
I was raised by a cult worshipping a very dark and frightening goddess, I was trained to want to become one of her warriors. But by the time I came here... I had already disobeyed her and had been discarded by her. I only wasn't ready to admit it or to think about what could come next. So I stubbornly tried to cling to those Sharran ways.
[though it's weird to just announce that you will, it takes her a second to think of what she'll say.]
I was raised by a cult worshipping a very dark and frightening goddess, I was trained to want to become one of her warriors. But by the time I came here... I had already disobeyed her and had been discarded by her. I only wasn't ready to admit it or to think about what could come next. So I stubbornly tried to cling to those Sharran ways.
[there is so much to unpack there. waner blinks for a moment, taking that in, and then nods.]
It can be... incredibly difficult to live in a way that is at odds with the way you have been raised. Even if you weren't ready to admit it at first, you still did end up taking that step in the end... I think that takes a lot of courage.
It can be... incredibly difficult to live in a way that is at odds with the way you have been raised. Even if you weren't ready to admit it at first, you still did end up taking that step in the end... I think that takes a lot of courage.
[she's a little flustered at that, but warm feelings anyway.]
I thank you, but... I don't know about my own courage. I was lucky to have been forced to confront these things by people who wouldn't let me look away from it. [she'll always owe elysia in particular for ratshaking her so hard over it.]
I thank you, but... I don't know about my own courage. I was lucky to have been forced to confront these things by people who wouldn't let me look away from it. [she'll always owe elysia in particular for ratshaking her so hard over it.]
Very well, then, I will.
[anyway that's her whole life story. if it helps.]
[anyway that's her whole life story. if it helps.]
[well. shadowheart has shared her life story and waner supposes it's only fair if she shares hers, since this is supposed to be a two-way street...]
...my father claimed he was in love with my mother but married her sister, and then brought me and my mother into his household while promising to make my mother his wife and to acknowledge me as his daughter when I was fifteen. Instead he made her his concubine, allowed my half-sister to torment us, and then when she set my mother up and framed her for having an affair, he beat my mother and she advised me to run away and convince a nobleman to marry me so my father couldn't mistreat her anymore. ...only the man who promised to marry me made me his concubine instead.
[it sounds kind of petty and soap-opera dramatic in comparison.]
...my father claimed he was in love with my mother but married her sister, and then brought me and my mother into his household while promising to make my mother his wife and to acknowledge me as his daughter when I was fifteen. Instead he made her his concubine, allowed my half-sister to torment us, and then when she set my mother up and framed her for having an affair, he beat my mother and she advised me to run away and convince a nobleman to marry me so my father couldn't mistreat her anymore. ...only the man who promised to marry me made me his concubine instead.
[it sounds kind of petty and soap-opera dramatic in comparison.]
[she will listen. it does not sound petty, though.]
...Men are awful, aren't they.
[girl, fuck all of that.]
What is the difference, to be a wife or a concubine? Status, security?
[she is actually from a fairly gender egalitarian world, though there is still a lot of abuse of power and bad stuff that happens to people.]
...Men are awful, aren't they.
[girl, fuck all of that.]
What is the difference, to be a wife or a concubine? Status, security?
[she is actually from a fairly gender egalitarian world, though there is still a lot of abuse of power and bad stuff that happens to people.]
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